My life

I want to be a singer and I am trying to be a good one but it's hard because am shyand if that doesn't work out I want to be a vet. I learning about animals I have four at home and my favorite animals are a cat and a horses but I am allergic to animals so I don't know if I should be a vet. But if that doesn't work out for me I want to a YouTuber and make videos and vlogs. Am try to start a YouTube channel with my sistet but it's hard because you have to find apps that help you edit and film. You need equipment for it and that like Thousand buck and I don't have that kind of money so I really don't know what to do. Can you help me?