In Search for love ...

I constantly feel like missing something. I constantly feel incomplete. I feel like I need someone by my side in order to be my happiest self. I need somebody to love. Because everyone needs such a someone. There are tons of people feeling this way. And most of them also feel like they're not good enough. They feel like noone could ever love them because they're just not worth it. I feel like that all the time. I feel like I would need to change a huge lot about myself before anyone could ever love me. I don't really know what love feels like. Because I had hundreds of crushes before but I feel like I've never really been in love. It must be the most amazing feeling in the world though. I want it to be as in movies and huger. I know that self-love comes before loving others or letting others love you. But for me it's just so hard to love myself. There are tons of things that I deeply hate about myself. And I know that I'm not the only person with these problems. One of my favourite TV shows is 'Catfish'. I love it so much because it's real and unreal at the same time. When I started to watch it I always wondered how people could fall in love or even get engaged via a chatroom. 'They must be dumb as ..' I thought. But I was curious. And I saw those magical connections that the people had. So I tried it too. I wanted to know if you could actually find true love or even a friendship in the internet. I was a little naive. Have to admit that. I mean, I've watched tons of episodes of 'Catfish'. I knew that there are sooo many fake profiles out there. I knew how easy it was to be catfished. But although I knew all that I did it anyway. I started to text with people in the internet. And I finally understood how you can like someone without ever seeing them or meeting them. I got to know some nice people. Well, I don't know if they actually were nice. At least it seemed like that. And I didn't really get to know them. But let's just leave it like that. I also got to know HIM by using a random chatroom. And I kinda had a crush on HIM. I had a crush on a person that I didn't really know, someone that I've never met. I mean, eventually we did meet. But we probably wouldn't have get to know each other in the first place if it wasn't by texting in that chatroom.

What I want to say is that I totally get the people who turn to the Internet 'in search for love'. I know why they do it and how they feel. And I also know that those people on the other side of the screen can give you the most amazing feeling in the world. They can make you feel liked or even loved. And they make you feel like you're worth it.
Everyone deserves to be loved. And I'm sure that there's somebody to love for everyone. Just always try to be yourself. Because you're beautiful. You're good just the way you are. You are worth it. Don't try to be like all the others. Try to love the things that are so special about you. Because those are the things that make you different. There is someone out there who will fall in love with exactly those things. Believe me. Someday you'll find each other. And until then: Just love yourself. You're amazing. And it just feels sooo incredibly good.